“…I was a bit relieved but a bit sad too.” Jack said honestly, looking down at his hands. “I. I didn’t want you to be burdened with something like that so early on in our relationship. I blamed myself, for, for your ‘pregnancy’ but for so long I’ve wondered if I would ever… have children. Not just because I’m an alien but, but because of who I was. I mean. Which woman would want me? But then, then you show up and you accept me and love me and kiss me and let me touch you. And then we think you’re pregnant and a part of me was so happy.”
He rubs at his ear, looking at the floor. “But it was too early. Too soon. Too fast for us. M. Maybe one day, when we’re married, we can really try for one? When the time is right. Of course.”
“….I’d like that,” she said, after a pregnant pause, just listening to his words and how he had felt. It made her happy, to hear what he had to say on the subject, made her more than happy in fact, to know he had wanted it as much as her and seemed to think the same way; these mixed feelings of happiness but also fear and worry of it being too soon.
“When we’re ready, I’d love to have your child Jack..” she continued softly, her voice filled with so much affection like a warm caress to his skin. She held his journal close, giving him a loving smile.
He smiled at her warmly before reaching out, and wrapped an arm around her, before pulling her in against him and pressed a kiss to her forehead. “Yeah when we’re ready. I’m in no rush to share you with anyone just yet, Katelynn… I guess I’m a little selfish like that… sorry.” he whispered the last part. “I’ve just never had anyone like you in my life before, and I’m a little worried at times that you’ll find someone better then me. Stupid fear, I know it is but… lifetime of being alone you can’t help but feel that way.”
Jack Maple 