“W-what can you—what can you do to apologize to me!” Jack said, quickly. “D-do you have any idea ho-how scared I’ve been? How worried? I was, I was about to call the police about you an-and being kept out of the loop of everything y-you do! How d-do you think that feels? T-to come home and not find you here, to s-see you go out and pro-promise me to be back and you don’t?”
He gestures to a window. “A-and these streets aren’t safe a-any more yet you c-continue to go out there on th-these missions or-or whatever it is you cal-call them and I j-just sit there. Waiting. Worrying.” Jack puts his hands to his chest.
“I’m y-your friend, aren’t I? I’m your b-boyfriend, I’m your fiance. D-don’t I matter?”
Was this everything he had been holding back? It shook her a bit to the core, gasping more as she took another step back, pressing her back against the door, her stomach twisting into knots.
“O-Of course you matter Jack…” she whispered, trembling. “Y-You matter the most to me…I just…”
What could she say to him? Another person she cared about and she was screwing it all up. It shook her to the core to see it happen all over again, even though this time it was just worry.
“I swear I won’t do it again..I’m tired of screwing up..of being so reckless…and I don’t want to lose you…I don’t want to cause you pain..”
“I just d-don’t want to lose you.” Jack said, moving to her now, reaching out and touching her face with his hands. Tears prickled at the corners of his eyes as he touched her cheeks with his fingers. “T-the thought o-of you ne-never coming back here scares me s-so much sometimes…” he leans down and presses his forehead to hers, eyes tightly shut.
“I. I’m not s-saying to never g-go outside again b-but you… please.. be careful…”
Jack Maple 