“N-No..” she whispered, moving over to him and putting her hands on his forearms, her hands trembling over him. “I-I just..I guess I was wrong..to do that and I’m sorry..I just hate causing you to worry and yet show you I get hurt or avoid you it’s all I seem to do. I don’t know what to do anymore..how to stop making these mistakes..”
She swallowed, the trembles moving over her entire body and happy she wasn’t crying at least. She was too stunned to possibly.
“What do I do..? Either way I seem to lose..”
“I don’t know.” he whispered quietly, miserably. He just felt like an utter failure, again. He said he would always be there for her, to keep her safe, yet what had happened? She’d been hurt, and she’d run away from him to keep him from worrying. But he had worried all the same, about how she was doing. Was she safe? Last time she’d run off and he’d tried to call her there was no answer so he hadn’t even tried to call her. What kind of man was he? He shut his eyes, and shook his head. “I just d-don’t know…”
Jack slowly pulled her into him, wrapping his arms around her. “Y… you have to tell me things. T-that you’ve been assaulted by someone, whether you f-feel you asked for it or not… I’m s-supposed to take care of you and if I c-can’t help avoid the confrontation a-at least let me help you get better afterwards… o-otherwise… wh-why are we getting married i-if I can’t even tend to you…? Katelynn I lo-love you so much but I’m so scared, still, that I’m n-not enough. And you r-running away from me only m-makes me feel that way more. So please… no more of this. Please.”
Her heart broke in response, her arms gripping at him tightly as she nuzzled into him. “God I’m sorry..I’m so sorry..I don’t want you to feel that way..I keep trying to improve and I make it worse.”
Yet she saw how contradicting she was being, calling him brave, reliable and yet not coming to him when she needed him. “I hope..I can improve..and prove myself better..and show you how much you mean to me.”
Taking a shuttering breath against him, a lone tear escaped her eye.
“I hope y-you can too.” he whispered quietly. “N-no more running away. N… no more staying at peoples houses when you’re hurt, or scared. I’m… I’m supposed to look after you…” Jack turned his face, brushing his nose against her temple, eyes tightly shut as he did. “Please…”
Jack Maple 