If You Love Something…

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Hope blossomed in her chest as she stared at his eyes for a few moments before shame settled and she looked away. He was concerned about her? It was more than she deserved. Wiping at her eyes with her palms, she tried tried mustering up some courage, reminding herself why she was here and what she wanted to do.

“…” She tried speaking at first, trying to find the words to say, fists at her sides. “…I’m so sorry for e-everything…Jack…I don’t…I don’t know if you got my text..about t-talking..” She whispered, fighting the urge to cup her cheek over the scar.

“I-I-I did get it,” he choked out. Looking at her face, he spotted the scar right away, but paid it no attention. All that mattered to him was that Katelynn was here, now. 

“I’m s-so s-s-sorry I didn’t answer you. I … I don’t know why I didn’t. And I know there’s no excuse. B-but … Katelynn, I still love you. I want you back. P-please tell me you’ve come back?” Jack looked at her pleadingly, bright green eyes meeting soft brown ones. 

Eyes going wide like saucers, she really hasn’t expected to hear him say that. It left her momentarily shocked, unmoving despite the bulldog fighting for her attention. “Y-You do..?” She whispered, as if unable to believe it. “…Why?”

Despite everything and how negatively she had thought the meeting to go, to hear this from his lips sent a warm feeling to curl in her chest.

It was hard for Jack to find the right thing to say. Painting and music were his gifts, not words. But, once he began talking, his feelings poured out. 

“B-because you’re wonderful, Katelynn. I don’t know why you can’t believe that. You’ve got the biggest heart of a-anyone I know. You’re so sweet, and kind – y-you even try to make friends with villains!” he chuckled weakly. “And you’re so brave. And you make me feel brave when I’m with you.”

He reached out for her, wanting so badly to hold her but so afraid she’d pull away again. “W-when you were drugged … that wasn’t you, Katelynn. That’s not who you really are. I know that. And it’s not your fault that it happened. You’re not weak because you couldn’t stop it. You’re brave, and you’re strong, and you’re kind, and I love you.

If You Love Something…

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Her heart leapt in both fear and amazement at the door opening, Stella squeezing through to leap at her mistress and lick her face.

But Katelynn’s eyes were trained on the handsome blue man before her, her hair hiding the scar from his view. There he was in the flesh. It had felt like too long since she had seen him.

And more tears collected in her eyes.

For a moment, Jack froze in his tracks, his green eyes wide as he stared at her. He wasn’t sure what could have gotten the dogs’ attention, but … he hadn’t been prepared for this. 

“K-Katelynn?”

But that was a good thing. Without time to think about it, it was easier for him to act on his feelings. He stepped over to Katelynn quickly and fell to his knees beside her. “A-are you all right? What’s happened?” He could tell by her torn, soot-stained catsuit that she’d been involved in something big and dangerous, and he wanted nothing more than to comfort her – no matter what she might have done. 

Hope blossomed in her chest as she stared at his eyes for a few moments before shame settled and she looked away. He was concerned about her? It was more than she deserved. Wiping at her eyes with her palms, she tried tried mustering up some courage, reminding herself why she was here and what she wanted to do.

“…” She tried speaking at first, trying to find the words to say, fists at her sides. “…I’m so sorry for e-everything…Jack…I don’t…I don’t know if you got my text..about t-talking..” She whispered, fighting the urge to cup her cheek over the scar.

“I-I-I did get it,” he choked out. Looking at her face, he spotted the scar right away, but paid it no attention. All that mattered to him was that Katelynn was here, now. 

“I’m s-so s-s-sorry I didn’t answer you. I … I don’t know why I didn’t. And I know there’s no excuse. B-but … Katelynn, I still love you. I want you back. P-please tell me you’ve come back?” Jack looked at her pleadingly, bright green eyes meeting soft brown ones. 

If You Love Something…

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This was it. She was at his door and trying to make an attempt at knocking. She raised a fist, move it forward and then stop, chickening out. What she imagined to be Stella’s bark, her mind filtered through memories of being together and playing with their dogs.

I can’t do this… she thought as she slumped to her knees, hair curtailing around her. She had shown nothing but bravery in helping her friends but now.

It was all gone.

Thoughts and scenarios of how this would play out filtered her mind and in every one Jack pushed her away and said he was tired of being hurt by her.

Tears began forming at the corner of her eyes, mixing in with the dirt on her face. She just wanted to see him.

She might be too afraid to open the door, but Stella wasn’t. The young bulldog perked up suddenly, her ears flicking as she heard her mistress weeping out in the hall. Though she hadn’t shown it as much, the dog had missed Katelynn just as badly as Jack did. She jerked away from him as he was trying to put a leash on her, and ran to the front door, barking excitedly, her whole butt wiggling as she wagged her tail. 

It took Roxy a moment to catch on – she wasn’t as close to Katelynn as Stella – but the little pug soon caught the scent and ran to the door as well. 

“Hey, girls, come back!” Jack insisted. “What is it? What’s out there?” The dogs weren’t growling, so it probably wasn’t anything dangerous. Curious, he opened the door. 

Her heart leapt in both fear and amazement at the door opening, Stella squeezing through to leap at her mistress and lick her face.

But Katelynn’s eyes were trained on the handsome blue man before her, her hair hiding the scar from his view. There he was in the flesh. It had felt like too long since she had seen him.

And more tears collected in her eyes.

For a moment, Jack froze in his tracks, his green eyes wide as he stared at her. He wasn’t sure what could have gotten the dogs’ attention, but … he hadn’t been prepared for this. 

“K-Katelynn?”

But that was a good thing. Without time to think about it, it was easier for him to act on his feelings. He stepped over to Katelynn quickly and fell to his knees beside her. “A-are you all right? What’s happened?” He could tell by her torn, soot-stained catsuit that she’d been involved in something big and dangerous, and he wanted nothing more than to comfort her – no matter what she might have done. 

If You Love Something…

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Her chest felt tight as she put a hand over her beating heart, catsuit in tatters, face smudged from her time spent helping to rescue Grace. She was hungry and tired but there was a determination in her steps as she made her way to Jack’s apartment though she faltered in her steps a few times.

Am I crazy to be going to him? she thought as stopped at a corner to let a car pass before continuing. He didn’t even text me back. Maybe he doesn’t want anything to do with me? Heart sinking at the thought as the building came into view, Katelynn’s steps slow before stopping completely, wondering if she was doing the right thing.

Yet she didn’t want a “what if” to hang over her head for the rest of her life.

She gulped, standing there among the crowd just a few feet from the entrance of the building, ignoring the stares as she was too focused on one thing only.

Jack.

It had been more than a week since that last, fateful text from Katelynn. As the days had gone by, Jack had waited, hoping desperately that she’d message him again, and hating himself for and more for not answering. But it had hurt so much when she came back, only to leave him again. He was too afraid, too weak, to try again. 

Katelynn’s birthday had come and gone, with no word from the woman herself. When they’d become a couple, back in December, Jack had been so sorry that he’d missed her birthday that year, and held out hope that they’d do something very special and romantic for this one. Instead, he’d spent the day alone in his apartment – painting, cuddling the dogs, and when he couldn’t hold it back any longer, breaking down and crying in silence. 

Now that he’d gotten that out, however, he was feeling a little better. He still missed Katelynn terribly, but at least he could go outside and go through the motions of his life again. 

And the weather’s nice today, the blue man thought, looking out the window. I could take the dogs to the park. Maybe something will happen. 

This was it. She was at his door and trying to make an attempt at knocking. She raised a fist, move it forward and then stop, chickening out. What she imagined to be Stella’s bark, her mind filtered through memories of being together and playing with their dogs.

I can’t do this… she thought as she slumped to her knees, hair curtailing around her. She had shown nothing but bravery in helping her friends but now.

It was all gone.

Thoughts and scenarios of how this would play out filtered her mind and in every one Jack pushed her away and said he was tired of being hurt by her.

Tears began forming at the corner of her eyes, mixing in with the dirt on her face. She just wanted to see him.

She might be too afraid to open the door, but Stella wasn’t. The young bulldog perked up suddenly, her ears flicking as she heard her mistress weeping out in the hall. Though she hadn’t shown it as much, the dog had missed Katelynn just as badly as Jack did. She jerked away from him as he was trying to put a leash on her, and ran to the front door, barking excitedly, her whole butt wiggling as she wagged her tail. 

It took Roxy a moment to catch on – she wasn’t as close to Katelynn as Stella – but the little pug soon caught the scent and ran to the door as well. 

“Hey, girls, come back!” Jack insisted. “What is it? What’s out there?” The dogs weren’t growling, so it probably wasn’t anything dangerous. Curious, he opened the door. 

If You Love Something…

will-never-be-a-swan:

Her chest felt tight as she put a hand over her beating heart, catsuit in tatters, face smudged from her time spent helping to rescue Grace. She was hungry and tired but there was a determination in her steps as she made her way to Jack’s apartment though she faltered in her steps a few times.

Am I crazy to be going to him? she thought as stopped at a corner to let a car pass before continuing. He didn’t even text me back. Maybe he doesn’t want anything to do with me? Heart sinking at the thought as the building came into view, Katelynn’s steps slow before stopping completely, wondering if she was doing the right thing.

Yet she didn’t want a “what if” to hang over her head for the rest of her life.

She gulped, standing there among the crowd just a few feet from the entrance of the building, ignoring the stares as she was too focused on one thing only.

Jack.

It had been more than a week since that last, fateful text from Katelynn. As the days had gone by, Jack had waited, hoping desperately that she’d message him again, and hating himself for and more for not answering. But it had hurt so much when she came back, only to leave him again. He was too afraid, too weak, to try again. 

Katelynn’s birthday had come and gone, with no word from the woman herself. When they’d become a couple, back in December, Jack had been so sorry that he’d missed her birthday that year, and held out hope that they’d do something very special and romantic for this one. Instead, he’d spent the day alone in his apartment – painting, cuddling the dogs, and when he couldn’t hold it back any longer, breaking down and crying in silence. 

Now that he’d gotten that out, however, he was feeling a little better. He still missed Katelynn terribly, but at least he could go outside and go through the motions of his life again. 

And the weather’s nice today, the blue man thought, looking out the window. I could take the dogs to the park. Maybe something will happen. 

It made her heart pound to hear him say that, giving him a nod. “All right–” She had wanted to say more but the words were stuck in her throat and she tried swallowing the lump. “I-I would have– anyway– even if there was no meme– y-you know– k-k-kissed you–” Her stuttering was a reflection of her beating heart as she avoided his eyes, looking at his lips for a moment. “A-Anyway– I’ll just go–“

[Oh god, he isn’t sure if what she just said makes it better or worse. He reaches out to her, silently begging her not to go this time, but she’s already gone before he can get the words out.] 

She fidgeted a but, cheeks burning bright red in embarrassment. “Kissing meme–” she explained vaguely, going on her tippy toes to plant a gentle kiss on his chin just close enough to his lips that when she pulled away they brushed against each other. “S-Sorry–“

[He blushes, and a shiver runs through him as their lips brush together. He wants more than anything to hold her close and make the kiss a real one, but the chance never comes. So he tries not to let her hear the hitch in his voice as he answers] Please, Katelynn, never be sorry for this.