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She walked over to him, putting her arms around him gently, snuggling into his chest. “It’s okay..I’m sorry..I’m so sorry!”

The fact that was being hypocritical did not leave her mind, it wouldn’t stop poking her at this point and she sighed shakily, her mind fighting wit her.

Should I tell him my secrets? Oh god what if he hates me?

“I…Jack..I guess I have to tell you…some thing about me…” Her heart felt like it was leaping at her throat. “Only my parent’s know..But you…god..you’re going to hate me but I can’t be a hypocrite! I can’t!”

Jack blinks, surprised, but he wraps his arms around her once she’s close enough. He holds her close, rubbing her back as he talks.

“Hate you? K-Katelynn I can’t hate you… y-you know you can tell me anything… isn’t, isn’t that the right way to have a relationship? A-all things on the table e-even if you think they might be bad? And i-if they are we can work through them. T-that’s how you know if a r-relationship can work…”

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She looked over at him, seeing the fear, and suddenly she felt like such a jerk, pressing her hand to her forehead as a wave of sadness overtook her body.

“I-I’m sorry…I didn’t even think about that..I thought you didn’t trust me..it’s really important for me…I’ve never..you know I haven’t been with anyone before..you’re my first boyfriend ever…I don’t know how to handle things or what to expect. But I knew trust and honesty were important and when I heard Vycter tell me instead of you..it hurt..I jumped to conclusions..I’m so sorry..!”

Jack wasn’t sure what to do, or say. He still felt very pathetic and small for having not told her about his possible biological father finding him, and foolish for having forgotten. But there was just so much going on in his life he had all but forgotten. What kind of a man forgets that?

“I, I’ve never had a girlfriend either.” he admits weakly. “This, this is new to me too and I don’t know what I can or can’t tell you but I don’t hide things…! I just, I j-just forgot I swear…”

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“He claims he is because you two look so similar,” she replied, standing up yet still not looking at him. “I mean the skin tone is obvious but the just…his face shape…it looks so much like yours…I can see similarities..he said you were and who was I to doubt him? He’s been looking for you for a long time. He’s happy to know you were taken care of.”

She wasn’t sure if it was the hormones of her pregnancy but anger was starting to spark inside of her. It mixed with the hurt, fueling her.

“But Jack..didn’t you trust me enough to let me know he had come looking for you?”

He can’t help but notice she’s not looking at him, now, more so than before. Jack stands there for a moment, feeling suddenly very small. Very. Very. Small. It’s a feeling he didn’t think he’d ever feel around her. He takes a step away, expression turning to one of.. many feelings. But his eyes read fear. 

“I-I trust you it just… n-never occurred to me to s-s-say anyt-thing it happened a-a- while a-ago I’ve b-been mea-meaning to s-see him a-again b-b-but wi-with the ho-hospital a-and Christmas a-a-and New Y-Year I f-f-forgot…”

will-never-be-a-swan:

She continued to stay down by Roxy, allowing her to calm her nerves with her hyper action. “Well..his name is Vycter..and it’s funny..he looks like an older version of you.” She snuck a glance over at him a moment before looking away.

“I don’t remember how the subject came up anymore..but I was curious when he said he had come looking for his son and had met you..And I asked if…if that was you and he told me you were and that you knew..”

Now she really did look over at him, hurt in her eyes. “Why didn’t you tell me you had found your biological father?”

Jack paused as he put his spider on a shelf where it would no doubt gather dust for months. He had met Vyctor.. how could he not remember running into the man? He had been vague. Mysterious. Was he his father, really, or just a man who thought he was? It was hard to imagine it… that his biological father had been missing all this time, only to show up now?

He turns around to look at her, still petting Roxy, not looking at him.

“…I just. Didn’t know how to feel a-about it all. I mean I have my father. I l-love him very much and suddenly this… this man I know nothing about shows up and… and claims he’s my father but how do I know he is? H-he can’t even p-prove it with a DNA test since, since they’re expensive and e-even if he’s an alien he can’t test that…”

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She walked in cautiously, avoiding his eyes. “O-Oh right..I had a key..I guess..I was a bit unsure about using it..in case you thought I was being invasive or something..”

She bent down to pet Roxy, having not seen her for a while. It also gave her hands something to do, her heart hammering in her chest. She didn’t even know how to start asking; she was too scared.

Taking a deep breath, she tried anyway.

“I um..I met someone recently..and was wondering something..”

He had tried to meet her gaze but she had pointedly avoided it. Why? What was wrong? He wanted to ask, had she learned something? Was… was she…

“Huh?” Jack asks, having not expected the question. “You met someone?” he asked. “W-well that’s good it’s always good meeting n-new people…!” this was true, right? He moves and picks up his half finished spider. “S-so what was their name?”

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When enough time had passed, Katelynn nervously looked at the test and nearly fell over the floor in shock.

Oh god, it’s positive!

She cried out, putting a hand to her stomach and grabbing the material of her shirt. She was pregnant with Jack’s baby. She had wished for something like this but not for a long time! Maybe someday if they got married but not because she had been stupid enough to say it was okay to make love without a condom!

Tears collected in her eyes, completely frightened for his reaction. He would he angry, she was sure of it. He would be terrified. He might even hate her.

She was a mixture of emotions but decided she would try to not tell him. At least for now until she could figure out what to do, maybe see a doctor and ask him what to do.

Throwing the test away in the trash, Katelynn walked out of the bathroom and towards his apartment, hoping to be as casual as possible and see what he was up to. She still wanted to know about Vycter, even though her mind screamed at how selfish she was being.

Hesitantly, she knocked on his door, forgetting she had a key.

Jack lifts his head as he hears someone knocking at his door, almost knicking himself on a spider. He hisses, and puts the metal down and gets to his feet. Katelynn had a key… maybe it was someone else? But he had nobody scheduled to pick up any work today…?

He approaches the door as does Roxy, snuffling arond the door excitedly. He pulls it open slowly at first, but then sees Katelynn.

“Katelynn!” he greets before he remembers what he saw that morning. Pills. Seven days. Baby. Jack welcomes her in, Roxy jumping around excitedly as always at seeing Katelynn. “D-did you forget your key?”

will-never-be-a-swan:

Katelynn had tried avoiding Jack for a while, scared of seeing what he would think about the news. Instead, she decided to take up Vycter’s offer of going into space for a news report, and had gone seeking him out, not even knowing he was her boyfriend’s biological father. She hadn’t made the connection when they had met but when she saw him she did.

Jack hadn’t even bothered to tell her and it hurt. Did he not trust her?

Yet at the same time she was holding her own bit of information. Two things now. She groaned, walking into her apartment, a home pregnancy test hidden in her purse for her to use. She was extremely nervous but decided to get this over with and find out.

Heading into the bathroom, Katelynn does the test and waits anxiously for the results.

Jack had locked himself away in his apartment, sculpting. Well, not sculpting. He had made scissor spiders. Something he tended to do from time to time when he felt a bit on edge.

And he felt on edge. Katelynn could be pregnant. She could be pregnant with his child. But they had only just gotten together a month ago! How could he even think of supporting a baby, with his salary? He barely made enough to get by with his apartment and living expenses. And babies are expensive.

One good thing? He didn’t have to worry about what his parents thought. They weren’t married at all. And they’d adopted him. 

But still.

Pregnant.

He sets to making another scissor spider.